I Lost It

I think I underestimated how low my energy reserves had become. Although I had tried to be sensible over the long weekend, the conference straight after the tough specialist appointments that week left me depleted. Empty. And I didn’t realise it. If I was more aware, I would have worked from home or the library that … More I Lost It

Summer Shoes

Quite a few women have asked me what I have been doing for shoes now that the weather is warming up. The October long weekend was the first time we have had hot weather lasting a number of days. When I saw the weather forecast for that long weekend, I knew that I needed to … More Summer Shoes

Shame Can Be Crippling

I wrote in the last post that I spent my October long weekend at a conference called CV. It sounds crazy. Why would anyone give up their long weekend, those treasured days of down time, to coach young adults through the process of thinking about gospel ministry as a vocation? But over those three to four … More Shame Can Be Crippling

Respecting Limits

My idea of space may not be what others mean by the idea. For me, space is not clearing out everything from my life, seeking quietness and solitude. Space is being around people, doing what I love, and having the freedom to think without other demands harrowing me. The day after the specialist appointment where … More Respecting Limits

Sorting Through the Trauma

I really don’t look forward to any medical appointment very much, but this one I was dreading. I had deliberately scheduled seeing this specialist during a non-lecture week. I needed space, emotionally and mentally, leading up to this appointment and rushing from lecture to the specialist’s rooms wasn’t giving me that flexibility. So I cleared the space … More Sorting Through the Trauma

Celebrating the Triumphs

I have been an outpatient now for eleven weeks. From week to week, seeing the tiniest of improvements and then experiencing bigger setbacks, takes persistence that I honestly thought was sometimes beyond me. I have also seen how transient patient life is at the rehab hospital; most patients pass quickly in and out of the … More Celebrating the Triumphs

Oh, Look At Her

The sun was glorious as I stepped out of the house; I felt warm for the first time since Spring arrived. I had reached my writing goal the previous day, so I was giving myself a day off from writing. I decided to read a novel instead. So after my regular Saturday morning Pilates session … More Oh, Look At Her

A Most Unexpected Change

My patience was in shreds. The week was a long one, trying to forge ahead with rehab alongside lectures, meetings, appointments, marking assessment, and everything else that happens in between to make life go from one day to the next. Thursday afternoon though was when my patience broke. My patience wasn’t in tatters because of … More A Most Unexpected Change